Psykopaint

I just found a really cool website called Psykopaint. The idea of it is to, basically paint without smudging your own hands. Some people are really pro here, and I feel like such a loser D: Nevermind, after PMR I shall practice my online painting skills.

Who Am I?

I have so many questions on my mind. What kind of person am I actually?

Am I selfish?

 Am I whiny ?

Am I bad tempered? 

Do I irritate you people?

Do people hate me?

What do they think of me?

Every night, these questions destroy my sleep. They make me indecisive, unsure of which step I should be taking next. It is impossible for me to answer these questions myself.

当局者迷，旁观者清。 

Can anyone answer my questions? Truthfully, no need for sugar coating. I really want to know. I can change!! *I think*  

Familia Or Fun?

2 trials down, 1 more before the big P. We were supposed to go khai's new home to watch movies and play badminton. (mind you it's 3 story house :O)

Too bad, I have to balik kampung tomorrow. Actually quite sad because I was looking forward to the movie session. My mum was sweet enough to let me choose:

To balik kampung or stay back in Subang.

How am I going to choose? I really want to go, but obviously family is more important right? I will die of guilt if I don't balik. What to do? ╮(╯▽╰)╭  

I've forfeited so much outings because of the same reason. It was okay the first 20 times, but after that I really feel like, ugh. But still, don't want to disappoint them......

I don't know how to tell them I'm not going. Rejected so many times but it gets harder each time. Nevermind, family. For family. Family. F.A.M.I.L.Y.